oh, this? it's nothing =)

FACELESS track 3

2009-11-15T13:34:34Z

TRACK 3

(school bell, whistle)

Shinonome-sensei: OK then! Let’s continue practicing folk dance. Separate into male and female roles please

Girls: OK!!

I’ll play a boy!

Me too!

(giggles)

Yayoi: (sigh) Girls’ gym class looks easy… Basketball doesn’t suit pretty boys like me… I’d like to dance holding Yuiko-san’s hand too…

(ball hits Yayoi)

Teacher: Hey! Don’t keep staring at the girls!

(laughter)

Yayoi: Yes sir…

Teacher: OK, we’ll be practicing stealing the ball and shooting, by pairs. The first one to score three points wins.

Do your best to get the ball!

Boys: Yes!

Teacher: First I’ll show you how. Let’s see, I’ll play with… OK, transfer student, you. You’re tall so you can play basketball right? Your name is?

Fuyuki: Fuyuki, Kurotani Fuyuki.

Teacher: OK, Kurotani! Try and get the ball! (dribbles ball)

Fuyuki: Yes. (grabs and shoots)

Boys: (amazed gasps) He’s great… so fast… He scored…

Teacher: T-that was quite well done. OK, one more time-

Fuyuki: Sensei, I’m sorry, but with you there’s no contest. If you want to show everyone an example, Aoyagi-kun.

Ritsuka: Eh?

Fuyuki: You’d be good enough to play against me

Ritsuka: But I haven’t played much basketball…

Teacher: Aoyagi, it’s okay, go on. Kurotani-sensei has assigned you.

Boys: (cheers) Yeah!!

Girls:

Hey, everyone, Fuyu-sama and that Aoyagi will have a basketball match.

Eh? Fuyu-sama will?

Really?!! That’s great! Great! Kyaaa!! Let’s go let’s go!

(runs off)

Shinonome-sensei: (whistle) Hey! We’re in the middle of a lesson!

Students:(fuss/screams)

Yeah! This is great!

Go go! So cool! Yay!

Yuiko: Waah…Ritsuka-kun and Kurotani-kun in a match, this is great!

Fuyuki: (dribbling) Aoyagi-kun, are you ready?

Ritsuka: Yeah. Anytime.

Fuyuki: Then try taking it from me!

(running)

Boys: He did it! Aoyagi got the ball!

Girls: No!!! Aoyagi don’t do that!! (screams)

Ritsuka: This is weird, strangely, my body feels used to the ball. Ritsuka… the Ritsuka of two years ago, was he good at basketball? Take that! (attempts to shoot)

Yayoi: He did it!

Girls: Kyaa!! Stop that!!

(bounces off)

Yayoi: Ah, he missed…

Fuyuki: Hm. Now it’s my turn. (dribbles, shoots)

Girls: Yay! Score! He’s great! Fuyu-sama’s so cool!!

Yuiko: I suppose the end’s decided, just by Kurotani-kun’s height… Ritsuka-kun!! Don’t lose!!

Ritsuka: Yeah!

Yayoi: Good, ball’s in his hands again!

Ritsuka: there you go! (shoots)

Yayoi: He did it!!

Yuiko: Score, score!! Ritsuka-kun looks so cool!!

Girls: No!! Not fair!! Aoyagi you idiot!!!

(Fuyu shoots) (cheers and claps)

(Ritsuka shoots) (boos)

No!!!

Shinonome-sensei: Who’s winning?

Yuiko: Now it’s two-two. The next one to score wins.

Shinonome-sensei: Really? Kurotani-kun… he’s got that same lonely look as Aoyagi-kun… But Kurotani-kun looks colder. Like Agatsuma-san. Oh no, I’m thinking about Agatsuma-san again!!

Ritsuka: Here goes- (attempts to shoot)

(running)

Fuyuki: You can’t! (pushes)

Ritsuka: Ah! O-Ow…

Yuiko: Ritsuka-kun!!

(Fuyu shoots)

Girls: Yay!! He did it!!! (claps)

Yayoi: Uhmm… wasn’t that a foul…?

Girls: What, are you doubting Fuyu-sama’s victory?!

What’s foul is your face!

Yeah yeah!

Idiot!

It’s Fuyu-sama’s win!!

Teacher: Hey what’s all this?! Shinonome-sensei, this is a problem. If you’re not instructing the girls properly…

Shinonome-sensei: Yes, I’m sorry!! (whistle) Everyone go back, continue practicing!!

Girls: Eh… don’ wanna~

It’s nice being with Fuyu-sama!!

Wanna watch more!!

Shinonome-sensei: Come on, come on, hurry up (clap)

(disappointed murmuring)

Fuyuki: Aoyagi-kun

Ritsuka: Eh?

Fuyuki: Here, take my hand

Ritsuka: Eh? Ah.

Fuyuki: There you go (pulls). Are you hurt?

Ritsuka: I’m okay, this is nothing

Fuyuki: I’m sorry. I got a bit carried away… But that’s your fault.

Ritsuka: Eh?

FACELESS track 1 & 2

2009-11-15T13:33:22Z

TRACK 1

Kurotani Momiji: (strikes a match) Are you cold? I’m sorry… this room has so many cracks… What do you think of Neesan’s face? This close to the fire, it’s turning red… Is it pretty? (laugh) Can you see? Under my left eye, there are small letters, aren’t there? My real name… my destined name… Faceless. But… to me this is nothing but a curse of the past. Because in this world there’s just the two of us, you and me. Neesan belongs to you. I want to belong only to you. For that I will go against the stars, the moon.

It’s good… it feels good… Look, the knife’s edge glows red in the flames… With this, I’ll break free from the curse!

(scream)

TRACK 2

(Tsuki no Kaasu)

(Kids in the background: good morning! Good morning!)

Yayoi: (walking) Kurotani Fuyuki? Who’s that?

Boys: A transfer student.

He came while you were absent.

The girls are all crazy about him.

Yeah yeah, not just the sixth graders, even the first graders are all over him

Yayoi: Hmmm… I’m not interested…

Boy: But, that girl Hawatari seems to like Kurotani too…

Yayoi: Eh? Yuiko-san? (laugh) That can’t be. ‘Cause Yuiko-san likes Aoyagi Ritsuka. Really, how annoying…

She’s not the type of person who switches just because some good-looking guy came along

Fangirls: Fuyu-sama~! (squeals)

Kurotani-kun! Fuyu-kun! Fuyuki-san! Fuyu-sama~!

Hang out with us after class…?

Yuiko: Ne ne Fuyu-sama, what is your father like? What about your mother? Do you have any other siblings?

Yayoi: Yuiko-san… No way…!

Boys: See that guy at the center of all those girls. That’s Kurotani Fuyuki.

Yayoi: That’s him?

Fangirls + Yuiko: Where does Fuyu-sama live? Can we all go hang out there?

Let’s go, let’s go!

Me too! I’m coming too! (squeals)

Yayoi: No… Yuiko-san… You… you’re… (crash)

Boy: Yayoi-san! You OK?

Yayoi: So that’s Kurotani Fuyuki… he really is cool and handsome, like an idol… And b-besides that he’s… t- t- t- taaaaall!!! (cries) This is the end. It’s better if it’s only Aoyagi Ritsuka. But if there’s a guy that tall then it’ll be impossible! Absolutely impossible!!

Boys: But, it’s not as if your situation has really changed.

Yeah, ‘cause, from the start, that Hawatari…

Even before Aoyagi came

She’s been saying “‘It’s impossible!” right!!!?

(crash)

Yayoi-san!

Steady now!

Ritsuka: (walks up) Yayoi-san, good morning

Yayoi: Ah, Aoyagi-kun, good morning… Aoyagi-kun!!!

Ritsuka: What?!

Yayoi: It’s not ‘what’…!! Listen… (gasp). Aoyagi-kun, how about it, looks like we’ll have to agree to a truce.

Ritsuka: Truce?

Yayoi: You don’t have to act ignorant. You understand a broken heart’s loneliness too, right?

It’s painful huh… and sad… (cries). So, let’s combine forces until Kurotani Fuyuki is driven away.

Ritsuka: Huh? Kurotani? The transfer student that came in the other day? Why should he be driven away?

Yayoi: Because!! Yuiko-san and that guy…

Yuiko: (runs up to them) Ritsuka-kun!! Good morning!!

Ritsuka: Ah, good morning, Yuiko

Yuiko: Uhmm, Ritsuka, you’re not angry?

Ritsuka: Angry? Why?

Yuiko: ‘Cause I joined everyone in fussing over Fuyu-sama, I mean, Kurotani-kun… it’s the same as chasing after an idol, it’s not as if I like him or anything… ‘Cause the only one I like is Ritsuka-kun! Really!

Ritsuka: I wasn’t really bothered by it…

Yayoi: Yuiko-san! I want to believe the words you say! That chasing after Kurotani was the same as with an idol.

And that the one you really like is Yayoi-san!

Ritsuka: She said that?

Yayoi: However! Long ago you clearly said you don't like guys who aren’t hard (katai) I mean tall (takai).

And now here’s Kurotani Fuyuki who’s so tall that Yuiko-san won’t be able to kiss (seppun) him without stretching!

Yuiko: (whispering) ‘Seppun’… does he mean Bean Throwing Festival?

Ritsuka: That’s ‘Setsubun’. He’s talking about kissing.

Yuiko: K-kissing?!!

Yayoi: Yuiko-san, please tell the truth… Can it be, can it be that… you… rather than Aoyagi-kun, surely …but rather than me, it’s Kurotani that you’ve fallen for…!

Yuiko: There’s no way that can happen! Yayoi-san’s mean! Making presumptions on other people’s feelings!!

Yayoi: But…

Yuiko: Let’s go, Ritsuka-kun!

Ritsuka: Yeah, class is about to start.

Yayoi: Ah… no… Yuiko-san!!!

FACELESS track 7

2009-11-15T13:04:11Z

TRACK 7

Kio: Our school doesn’t have a very good menu huh… Souchan, what will you eat?

(phone rings)

Soubi: Ritsu-sensei…

Kio: Eh, you’re not gonna answer it?

Soubi: Mm. it’s a prank call.

(persistent ringing)

Soubi: (sigh) What do you want?

Ritsu: Soubi-kun, your voice is as cute as ever.

(Nagisa screaming in background, smashing objects)

Soubi: I’m hanging up.

Ritsu: You don’t care what happens to Loveless? (Ritsu you idiot!!)

Soubi: Sensei, what did you do to Ritsuka?

Ritsu: The one who did something is a woman named Kurotani Momiji. Seems she’s kidnapped him. (I’m gonna kill you!!)

Soubi: Kurotani? The woman who killed Shin-sensei?

Ritsu: Looks like it. I don’t care about that woman or Loveless (Stupid stupid stupid!!) but I thought you’d want to know, that’s why I called.

Soubi: That’s very kind of you.

Ritsu: So how about you come over here, let’s solve this problem together?

Soubi: That aside, I’ve been hearing a strange noise since earlier, what’s that?

Ritsu: (Idiot!!) Oh, that’s a drunk elephant going wild. (Who’re you calling a drunk elephant? Stupid Ritsu!!)

Hey! That’s the phone line- (dial tone)

Soubi: Sensei? Hello?

Kio: What’s the matter?

Soubi: No way… Ritsuka…

(clock ticking)

Katsuko: Is something the matter, Ritsuka-kun?

Ritsuka: Eh? No. Hey, Katsuko-sensei…

Katsuko: Mm?

Ritsuka: You’re relatively pretty so you must’ve been quite popular, when you were in school…

Katsuko: No, that’s not the case at all. First, it’s not “relatively,” it’s “very” pretty and second, it’s not just when I was in school, I’m popular even now.

Ritsuka: Is that so… Then, dating… or kissing, things like that, someone other than the one you’re with, you’ve done that?

Katsuko: Ritsuka-kun, are you perhaps going out with two girls?

Ritsuka: No, not girls… I mean, that’s done on TV dramas and it bothered me a bit… When that’s the case, what should be done…?

Katsuko: Wouldn’t that be to decide which one you love? If you love them both, go out with both for a while.

Ritsuka: No way! Adultery and two-timing, I think that’s bad!

Katsuko: Why?

Ritsuka: Because you’ll be hurting people’s feelings

Katsuko: That’s right. But what if you couldn’t help falling in love?

Ritsuka: Eh?

Katsuko: Even though you know someone will get hurt… Even if it costs you your life… What if you fall hopelessly in love?

Ritsuka: I wonder if there’s such a thing…

Katsuko: If rational judgment still works then it can’t be called love. Because romantic love is a strange state of mind. Whether you say it’s good or bad, there’s nothing you can do about it. What’s important is what you really feel for your partner

Ritsuka: Really feel for your partner…

Katsuko: (sigh) Gazing at Ritsuka-kun like this… Rational judgment just fades away…

Ritsuka: Eh? Did you say something?

Katsuko: Nn. Nothing!

Ritsuka: (riding elevator) Kurotani Fuyuki… He was level-headed all the while. He said he’d steal what he wants

And he didn’t say anything about love. Soubi says it eveytime we meet, though…

(elevator opens)

First floor.

Ritsuka: Oops, been on silent mode all this time. Ah, lots of messages from Soubi

(ring) M? Yes?

Fuyuki: Aoyagi-kun, it’s me

Ritsuka: Kurotani-kun

Fuyuki: There’s been a strange turn of events. My sister tried to kidnap you but she took Yayoi-san by mistake.

Ritsuka: Took Yayoi-san? What do you mean, kidnap!?

Momiji: Loveless, right? If you want to rescue the boy, come to the steel towers by the riverside immediately.

That Soubi can come along too.

Ritsuka: Who are you? Why did you take Yayoi-san!

(Momiji hangs up) H-hey! Hello?!

(ring) Soubi!!

Soubi: Ritsuka. You’re safe. Good.

Ritsuka: It’s not good! Soubi, come here right now, hurry!

FACELESS track 6

2009-09-06T12:58:55Z

[] - missing text
italics - said over the phone

(crash, muffled Fuyuki struggling)

Momiji: I’m sorry, Fuyuki… For locking you up in a closet like this. It’s dangerous to let you near Loveless. It’s gonna be a bit rough but (door close) I’ll catch him.

~~~~

(school bell)

Kids: Goodbye! Bye bye!!

(car stopping)

Momiji: So this is Loveless’ school. With all these schoolkids here I won’t know which one is Aoyagi Ritsuka! Oh right, according to Fuyuki… There’s a girl who you’d never think was a gradeschooler who’s always with him

Yuiko: Ritsuka-kun said he had something to do today then went home by himself. I wonder if he’s come to hate walking home with me, since I can’t talk of difficult matters like Kurotani-kun

Yayoi: Kurotani Fuyuki was absent today huh? Maybe this is a chance given to me by heaven!

Yuiko: See you, bye.

Yayoi: Huh?

Yuiko: I want to study by myself. I must get closer to Ritsuka-kun, even just a bit…(sigh)

Yayoi: Yuiko-san? Aw, she’s left… Yuiko-san… the Yuiko-san who comes to school and just enjoys the school lunches… Wants to study… Wah!

Momiji: Aoyagi Ritsuka, right?

Yayoi: Huh?

(struggle, car driving away)

Momiji: (chuckle) I did it, I captured Loveless. Easily! Should’ve done it this way from the start. Now I can have revenge. Against them, against him. (laughter)

~~~~

(typing, phone rings)

Ritsu: Yes.

Momiji: Ritsu-sensei. It’s me, Kurotani.

Ritsu: Kurotani-san, who?

Momiji: Kurotani Momiji

Ritsu: Well.

Momiji: Don’t tell me you don’t remember. I have the kid you and Nanatsu no Tsuki are looking for. Loveless, Aoyagi Ritsuka.I have him.

Ritsu: Hm. That’s a familiar name.

Nagisa: Hey, Kurotani, you mean Kurotani Momiji? Faceless’ survivor?

Ritsu: You… I’m in the middle of a call. Why are you in my room in the first place?

Nagisa: What do you mean why? You called me! You said we’d talk about research budget matters

Momiji: Hello?

Ritsu: Ah, excuse me, I was talking with someone here. What about Loveless?

Momiji: If you want him I’ll give him to you. In return I’ll have you stop chasing us.And I have another condition-

Nagisa: Hey, you’re Momiji, right? After all this time, what do you want?

Momiji: N-Nagisa-sensei?

Ritsu: You! Go away for a bit, won’t you?

Nagisa: But it’s okay…!

Ritsu: Yes, and then…?

Momiji: Ritsu-sensei, if you want Loveless then come get him alone, got it? Alone.

(Nagisa whining in the background, sounds of struggling)

Nagisa: Don’t want to!!

Ritsu: Go over there! You’re noisy!

Momiji: If you come here with Nagisa-sensei I’ll be angry!

Ritsu: Ah, I agree with you

Momiji: I’ll email you the time and place. Fine then.

(dial tone, hang up)

Nagisa: Hey, what was that? What did that woman call you about?

Ritsu: Before we get to that, it seems you know that woman. Who is she?

Nagisa: You don’t remember?

Ritsu: At all.

Nagisa: Kurotani Momiji is a graduate of this school.She was quite beautiful. Well, not as much as me, though.

Ritsu: If that’s so then she’s not very-

Nagisa: Ahem…

Ritsu: Uh, nothing. And then?

Nagisa: She was called Faceless, and was quite an excellent Sacrifice. But her Fighter was a [missing adjective here] guy... Unable to keep up with her way of doing things, he committed suicide

Ritsu: Oh?

Nagisa: However, Momiji didn’t follow after him. Everyone around bullied her, saying “you should’ve died.” After that her personality became gloomy. Anyway, Momiji was going to be a researcher, and so became Shin-sensei’s student. Ah, you remember Shin-sensei, right? That old man, he was saying he’d create a really smart Fighter, and was raising a kid. Momiji was taking care of that kid. How- e- ver

Ritsu: Mm?

Nagisa: Momiji, for some reason, fell in love with you. I don’t know what good she saw in you but there’s nothing we can do about that now. However, you were crazy about that idiot Soubi so you never entertained her. Because of that, that girl went mad. To get your attention she staggered around drunk and naked, seduced guys all around… Do you remember?

Ritsu: If you’re talking about Soubi-kun…

Nagisa: You…!

Ritsu: And then?

Nagisa: In the end, she became violent, ended up seriously injuring a student. Of course, she was fired. After that, Momiji set fire to the laboratory, took the kid she was taking care of and fled. They found Shin-sensei’s corpse among the ruins.

Ritsu: Hm. Murdered…

Nagisa: Momiji aside, the kid was important so Nanatsu no Tsuki pursued them for a while, but it seems they’ve stopped that around two years ago. Apparently they decided Momiji’s influence was too strong and he’d be useless.

Ritsu: I see. I didn’t know that.

Nagisa: This is all your fault! You really don’t remember anything? Is something wrong with you? You should go to a hospital!

Ritsu: There are countless things I have to think about so the useless things, the things I don’t care about, I forget them right from the start.

Nagisa: Hmmm. So, what was that phone call about?

Ritsu: I forgot.

Nagisa: Whaa!!?

Ritsu: Hm, an email came. Oh right, right. By the way, there’s one more thing I want to ask…

Nagisa: What?

Ritsu: Who are you?

(Nagisa screams, throws objects)

Ritsu: That (dodge) was a little joke…

Nagisa: Don’t joke with a serious look on your face!!!

(more crashing objects)

FACELESS track 5

2009-08-24T15:14:31Z

~Fuyuki and Momiji~

(door open/close)
Fuyuki: I’m home (footsteps) Neesan? Neesan?

Momiji: Fuyuki! (glomp) You’re late, what happened? I was worried about you!

Fuyuki: I contacted Loveless. Like you told me to.

Momiji: Really? And then?

Fuyuki: Not yet.

Momiji: Not yet? He’s just a twelve year old kid! Whether they’re boys or girls, with your charm there’s no way they won’t fall for you!

Fuyuki: It’s gonna take a while. He is… special.

Momiji: Special?

Fuyuki: When I look into his eyes I feel as if I can’t leave him alone. I’ve never met a kid like that.
He’s somewhat like me, from long ago…

Momiji: I see… it’s not just Nanatsu no Tsuki who is after him. You’ve fallen for him, instead of him for you!

Fuyuki: W-what are you talking about, Neesan? That I would fall for him…!

Momiji: Fuyuki! I know everything about you! Even the things you yourself haven’t noticed, everything! You’re in love right now. With someone other than me… With Loveless! With Aoyagi Ritsuka!

Fuyuki: That’s nonsense! I-

Momiji: That’s unforgivable!! (slap) There’s just the two of us in this world, you and me! There’s just you… for me there’s just you!!

(fight)

Fuyuki: Neesan, stop it!

(scream)

Momiji: It’s alright if you’re just fooling around, doesn’t matter with whom. But not if you’re serious. Your real partner is just me! Only me!

(screams)

~Ritsuka and Soubi~

Ritsuka: (sigh) What he said… I wonder if it’s true…The same name… Bond of fate…
(knocks)
Soubi…
(someone attempting to open window)

Soubi: Ritsuka. Ritsuka. You’re there, aren’t you?

Ritsuka: I don’t want to see him… I won’t see him!

(ring tone)

Soubi: Ritsuka, what’s the matter?

Ritsuka: Nothing.

Soubi: I’m on the veranda. Unlock the window.

Ritsuka: I’m busy right now. I’ve got homework and stuff. I don’t have time to hang out with you.

Soubi: Then raise the curtain. I just want to see your face.

Ritsuka: Just go home!

(hangs up)

Soubi: Hmmm. “Go home…” in this rain, without even letting me see his face… That’s a difficult order…

(rain in the background)

FACELESS track 4

2009-08-12T14:08:01Z

O_O this should've been posted a loooong time ago but i never got around to doing it. it's been sitting in my laptop for the longest time... hope you enjoy it.
[--] means i skipped a line or two.

TRACK 4

(school bell)

Yuiko: (runs up) Ritsuka-kun!! Can we go home together?

Ritsuka: Okay. Would it be alright? If you don’t go with them, they’ll ignore you again.

Yuiko: It’s okay! Besides, I have Ritsuka-kun!

Yayoi: You've got me, too!

Girls: (fussing over Fuyuki) Hey, Fuyu-sama! Kurotani-kuuun! Let’s go eat donuts? Karaoke would be nice!

Hey, come on…

Fuyuki: Well everyone, that’s it for today. See you!

Girls: Eh? ‘That’s it’?

Fuyuki: Don’t follow me anymore, please.

Girls: Eh?!! No way! Don’t want that!

Fuyuki: Please. Bye now.

Girls: Fuyu-sama~!! Kurotani-kun!!

Fuyuki: (running) Aoyagi-kun, Hawatari-san. Let’s go home together?

Ritsuka: Eh?

Yuiko: W-With me? Oh no, this is a problem! Walking home with two handsome boys!

Yayoi: Uhmm… there’s another one here…

Fuyuki: Aoyagi-kun, there’s a lot of things I want to talk to you about

Ritsuka: Me?

Fuyuki: You’re always reading books, right? What kind of books?

Ritsuka: Uhm… Like Nietzsche… and Heidegger

Fuyuki: Hmmm… I’ve read “Being and Time” too…

Ritsuka: Eh? Really?!! This is the first time I met a gradeschooler who reads Heidegger!

Fuyuki: It’s the first time for me too

Ritsuka: Kurotani Fuyuki... He really is tall. Not as tall as Soubi though… That aside, he’s got marks of injuries… Earlier, under the gym uniform, I saw bandages too. Maybe, like me… His mother or someone is…?

~~~

Ritsuka: There’s a forest this thick close to my home…?

Fuyuki: Eh? You didn’t know?

Ritsuka: I just moved in too. So I’m not that familiar

Fuyuki: [--] It’s a fine place to philosophize, isn’t it?

~~~

Yayoi:Hey, why are we sneaking around?

Yuiko: Because… I don’t want to interrupt their conversation.

Yayoi: Can’t we just talk with them?

Yuiko: We can’t go there.Ritsuka-kun must’ve wanted a friend like Kurotani-kun who can talk about difficult matters. All I can talk about is stuff like food.

Yayoi: Yuiko-san…

~~~

Fuyuki: Aoyagi-kun

Ritsuka: Hm?

Fuyuki: Do you read classics?

Ritsuka: Classics?

Fuyuki: Collection of Ten Thousand Leaves, Records of Ancient Matters, Chronicles of Japan. When reading Joudai works, school, family… The stupid little things in real life… I can forget all of them.
In the future, I think I’ll be a researcher on the classics

Ritsuka: Eh…

Fuyuki: What about you?

Ritsuka: Eh?

Fuyuki: In the future, do you plan to be a philosophy teacher?

Ritsuka: No way… I mean I… I can’t think of future matters. I don’t even know my own past.

Fuyuki: You’re worried about life too huh… Which is why you think about the meaning of existence.

I used to think about it a lot too. When I got to thinking, I couldn’t sleep at night... When I die, what will happen to the ‘me’ that existed? Where was I before I was born? Why am I here now? But in the end there was just one thing I understood

Ritsuka: Understanding even just one is great! What did you understand?

Fuyuki: That death is inevitable. You understand, right?

~~~

Yuiko: I don’t understand at all.

Yayoi: Eh? We’re going home?

Yuiko: I’m like an idiot. Not ‘like,’ AM an idiot!

Yayoi: That’s…

Yuiko: Because a while ago I was thinking what to do with two handsome boys beside me. But Ritsuka-kun and Kurotani-kun aren’t interested in me at all.

Yayoi: I’m interested in everything about Yuiko-san… Ah! Wait for me!

~~~

Fuyuki: Aoyagi-kun, imagine. At present there are over six billion humans existing on earth. But not one among them will be living after two hundred years. Everyone will be dead. No matter how excellent their doctors are. No matter what religion they cling to. In the end, they will turn to ash and vanish. And at the same time, the world around them. People, animals, the earth, the sun… Everything in the universe will disappear

Ritsuka: Everything will disappear?

Fuyuki: Doesn’t it upset you to think that after you die the world continues to exist? But when you die, you won’t be aware of that. In short, from your point of view it’s the same as if the world vanished. If that’s so, there’s no point worrying about this or that. While we’re alive we should just do what we want. Steal what we want. Kill the ones we hate. After all, someday they will all disappear

Ritsuka: I think that’s wrong…

Fuyuki: Oh? Can you argue against it?

Ritsuka: Before, I also used to think, if everything disappear someday then why care about life? But we’re alive now… I think that’s important. I don’t want to hurt anyone who’s living, same as me. I definitely don’t want to kill.

Fuyuki: That’s not a very logical opinion… But you’re a kind person. You have lots of friends, so you think that way

Ritsuka: You don’t have friends?

Fuyuki: It’s because I’ve always been traveling with my sister. If I had met you earlier, we could have been friends.

Ritsuka: “Could have been”? Now is not too late, is it?

Fuyuki: It’s too late. (tugs)

Ritsuka: Those ears…

Fuyuki: Yes. They’re fake. The real ones were taken from me two years ago. The tail too, of course.

Ritsuka: You’re not a gradeschooler?

Fuyuki: If I’m really attending school, I’d be in junior high. So right now I don’t really want kid friends.

What I want is…

Ritsuka: What…?

Fuyuki: I told you… I’ll steal what I want.

Ritsuka: Eh? (struggle) Idiot! I can’t believe you kissed me! Let me go!!

Fuyuki: Smart but naïve, Loveless. That's your real name, right?

Ritsuka: How come… you know?

Fuyuki: I’ll show you my secret. You might have noticed, during gym class. The bandage on my arm (unzip)

Ritsuka: Huh?

Fuyuki: You know what this is? It’s a burn scar

Ritsuka: Someone burned you?

Fuyuki: I did it myself. Two years ago, my real name began to appear on my left arm. I didn’t want to be bound by a name so I burned it. But since coming to this city… Meeting you… I’ve been thinking it was a mistake to do so

Ritsuka: Eh?

Fuyuki: I wasn’t able to read it clearly but the first letter was definitely L

Ritsuka: L?

Fuyuki: What do you think it was? A name starting with L…

Ritsuka: It can’t be…

Fuyuki: You feel it too, don’t you? The bond of fate, connecting us.

Ritsuka: That’s… I’m…

Fuyuki: Let’s make sure… One more time. If we do it again we’ll know… Come on…

Ritsuka: Eh? (struggle) Let go of me! Stop fooling around! I wanted to be friends with you! I felt we had things in common so… I thought we could really be friends!

Fuyuki: Aoyagi-kun…

Ritsuka: But now you keep talking nonsense. What bond of fate?! I don’t believe in such things!! (runs away)

Fuyuki: Friends…?

Ritsuka: (running) He’s making a fool of me… doing that... all of a sudden!! He’s not Soubi!

Soubi… How will I tell Soubi? There’s no need to tell him, right?! I can’t tell anyone…

post-exam state of mind

2006-08-19T22:08:02Z

after the board exams, naisip ko, shet... kung ang 10/10 ay ruptured aneurysm resulting to subarachnoid hemorrhage, nasa 9/10 na yata ako. adding to that inaantok ako, nasi-CR, nagugutom, at hindi ko alam anong uunahin ko sa kanilang lahat. kung magCR ako at magValsalva, pano pala kung may aneurysm talaga ako? tsaka, hindi ako makatulog kasi nga ang sakit ng ulo ko. ayoko ring gumalaw. so pano ako bibili ng food para kumain? aabot ba ako sa CR? hand me those painkillers na lang... don't worry, hindi ako mago-OD. wait, ano kasi ang tamang dose... may choices ba? pag hindi alam, C yan. o kaya TRUE. o kaya, longest answer. dosage? PRN na lang.

at ang mga tanong ko pa, paano ko ibe-break ang news sa mga nageexpect na mga tao? sa mga nangungumusta? "ah, hindi, i'm not yet working. wala pa akong license. magbo-board exams pa ako sa feb. oo, merong exams nung august. yep, nagtake ako. nope, hindi ako pumasa. ehe. he. he. hehehe. ganun lang talaga. me? i'm fine, fine..." *sheepish smile* "really, it was all my fault... feeling overconfident and everything... hindi, talaga, i'm fine. Ano ba?!!! FINE nga sabi eh!!! tigil-tigilan nyo na nga ako!" *sabay takbo* ahh. drama. baka pwede akong scriptwriter?

sorry dad, kala nyo nagrereview ako sa kwarto, i was busy downloading anime and syempre, pagkadownload, gotta check if the file works, right? tama. mukha akong puyat kasi minarathon ko to see if they all work. the good news is, ang dami kong nadownload and they all work!! manga chapters, episodes, soundtracks, images, reviews... saya saya! the bad news is, walang tinanong sa exams about anime. ang sama talaga nila. sorry nga rin pala bili ako ng bili ng gloria jeans coffee. masarap eh. tsaka pala next time, hindi na ako 14 hours a day matutulog. 7 hours na lang. gigising na talaga ako when you wake me up.

hey roommate, sayang ang mga pinakain mo sa akin na food, sayang mga text mo reminding me na magseryoso na ako. the good news is, mapapakinabangan ko ang reviewers mo for six more months!! sulit diba! alam ko na aling parts ang important!! the advantages of retaking diba?!! this time mega gagamit na ako ng highlighters, color coding, asterisks, underlines, hearts, stars, circles, boxes. gagawa na ako ng mga sobrang bastos na mnemonics para di ko talaga makalimutan ang mga bagaybagay. aalamin ko na ano talaga ang caterpillar cell. 6 months, 12 subjects, ergo, roughly 2 weeks per subject. sisiw na to.

sa lahat ng mga naging teachers ko, sa basic at clinical subjects, i'm sorry... wag nyo ko masyado ikahiya ha.

shet uli!! all this means, hindi ko pa pwede idispose ang med uniforms ko! kasi gagamitin ko pa uli sa february. ibig sabihin di ako pwede magpakataba kasi baka di na magkasya?? the heck?!! bibili na lang ako ng whites! kakailanganin ko ng comfort food in the near future, like, right now and everyday until lumabas muli ang exam results. sa feb...

meantime, mag-aaral muna ako magdrive, maglilinis ng bahay, maghahanap ng alternative career, ano pa ba... magtatago sa mundo. magsusulat ng short story. pwede ring nobela. maghahanap ng asawa. something. something like that. habang nagre-Review II (This Time, For Real). simulan na natin habang maaga. peak learning period is right after mistakes are made. hanapin na lahat ng sagot na hindi alam. malay mo, lumabas uli sa feb!! bwisit na feb. feb pa naman birthday ko. fwehh.

next time, hindi na ako magbubura ng answers. kasi 2 years ang suspension pag invalidated exam. wait lang... so, 24 months, 12 subjects, 2 months per subject!! okay to ah... maraming learning. hindi na shortcut baby books ang babasahin ko. Mama versions na. at since august 2008 pa, hindi tatama sa birthday ko in feb. yehey.

totoo nga namang what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. nasa huli ang pagsisisi, pero pag tapos na, eh di magsimula uli!! time to apply the lessons you've learned from past mistakes diba?! prove na may natutunan ka by showing appropriate modification of behavior!! chaka!! ang galeng galeng ko naman!!! more than adequate coping mechanisms! at sa bilis mag-kick in, i'm feeling so much better about myself already that i'm wondering if i should be feeling sadder about all this... mood swing lang ba to? i'm still sane, right? wala naman sigurong nababaliw ng dahil lang bumagsak sa exam. Exag na yan.

Kaya buti na lang, hindi ako bumagsak. Haaaaaaay!!!

^___^